Godmother!

I forgot to say - our friend had her baby last week, 6 weeks early! She's doing really well. She's adorable and I'm in love. We've been asked to be Godparents which I'm thrilled about :)

Losing faith

I saw my reflexologist last week. The usual spot on my feet was hurting - the one that relates to my uterus. It didn't hurt as much as the first session but there was still pain and discomfort. She asked me if I had had any investigations done on my womb - which I haven't - and she encouraged me to ask the clinic about it. I'd felt so positive about the reflexology up until that point but now I feel that she isn't seeing a significant imporovement and maybe doesn't think she can help me anymore :( She also suggested that I think about going to a different clinic as she hasn't heard good things about mine. But the clinic she suggested is 90 minutes drive away - it's just not practical to have my treatment there. So overall I felt pretty negative after she left! I have always wondered whether there was more investigation that could be done on me to figure out why I'm not getting pregnant, but when we were last at the clinic and asked the consultant about it she was dismissive. I spoke to a colleague about it this week and she suggested that I ask to make an appointment with one of the nurses to talk it through. So I called the clinic and asked for this. Well, it turns out that they should have arranged an appointment for me with a nurse anyway, to discuss the IVF treatment in detail - but they'd forgotten about me! Cheers then. We're now due to go in and speak to a nurse on the 6th Dec. I spoke to the nurse that we'll be meeting with on the phone this week. He's new to the clinic and is definitely the most effective communicator that I've come across there - so fingers crossed it's a positive meeting. In the meantime, I've ovulating again...

Distractions

So, no joy last month and I've just ovulated again. Good to see from the ovulation sticks that it's actually happening! There have been a lot of distractions this month - work, my business and a nasty flu bug. It's good to be distracted from all this.

Feeling positive

So, I started using the ovulation tests this month and got a positive result on Sunday. So we did what we needed to do using the preseed. I've been very aware of ovulating - my left ovary is very active. And today I actually noticed some good, stretchy cervical mucus which I haven't noticed other than when I have been on the fertility drugs! So I'm weirdly excited about that and feeling very positive about things. I really think that the reflexology has had an impact.

Preseed

I had another reflexology session this week. I'm due to ovulate and the areas that correspond with my ovaries were painful again. So we're wondering if the soreness is just due to my natural cycle happening. Maybe I am pinning too much on this treatment.
I've also ordered some ovulation tests and some Preseed which is a sperm-friendly lube. It seems that it might help conception. So, we'll see...

Rest

I saw the reflexologist again a little over a week ago. She picked up the sciatica that I've been suffering with which was really impressive. And we both noticed some improvement in the areas that relate to my uterus and ovaries which is promising. She thought that maybe my period was late due to the last treatment and she thought that the second treatment would bring on my period, which it did. My period was still fairly light though, as it has been since I started taking the pill and since I came off it 2.5 years ago now. I was kind of hoping, weirdly, that my period would go back to being the way it was before I started taking the pill - longer and heavier. I thought that this might be a sign that my body was getting back to normal. Maybe I'm pinning too much hope on the reflexology.
We've been on holiday this week and taking it really easy. I intend to try and take things a bit easier now that we are back. And I've having another reflexology session later this week.

Limbo

So we went to see the consultant about IVF and had lots of information to absorb. We plan to start the treatment in January. There just isn't a good time to work it into my schedule before then. I'm happy about this as it gives me some time without treatment, and some time to see if the reflexology will help at all.
In the meantime, I feel like I'm in limbo. My period is 9 days late - unheard of for me - and I've done two pregnancy tests which were both negative. Weird. I'm wondering if the last reflexology treatment has shifted things at all.
And so it looks like I won't be ovulating when I'm holiday next week after all. I guess there's a good chance that I'll have my period instead. Great! And if it's late, probably a heavy period too. Even better! But who knows.
I'm seeing the reflexologist again tomorrow so it will be interesting to get her take on it.