Uncertainty

I'm now halfway through the 3rd cycle. I had my tubes checked this week with a hysterosalpingogram. It's an x-ray using dye to check that there aren't any blockages. Not a great experience but the good news is that all looks fine on that front which is a relief! What's also good news is that the procedure could make it more likely that I get pregnant this month as it helps to 'clear the way'. So we'll see...
A family member of mine has a lot of faith in a particular psychic where she lives. She took a picture of me and my husband along to her last reading, and the psychic correctly predicted that it's me that has the problems. She says that we will get pregnant through an insemination procedure and that I will be pregnant before I turn 38. Only 1 year and 9 months until then! The psychic also predicted that this particular family member will fall pregnant herself this month, so time will tell how accurate this is.
I'm finding it increasingly difficult to deal with friends getting pregnant. When I first started this journey, I was thrilled to hear that people I know were pregnant and looked forward to it being me. More recently I find myself thinking, 'not another one, what the hell'. Some close friends of ours got married about 9 months ago and it's clear, although not formally announced, that she is pregnant. I'm finding this one particularly difficult for some reason. I can't quite put my finger on why. Perhaps because they are quite a bit younger than us and they have a lovely home and good jobs, but I thought that this was something we would get to before them. I know it's not a competition or a race, and I'm genuinely happy for them, but I still find it very sad.
The drugs I've been taking have been making me anxious and down so that could be having an impact. And I have 2 weeks left at my job before leaving and I'm feeling generally nervous and lacking in confidence about my future. It would be great to have a sense of certainty again.