Wednesday 27 May 2009

It's been a while...

...I didn't mean to leave it this long. But there hasn't been a lot to report. I've been kind of tracking my temperature on the website that I mentioned in my last post, but there doesn't seem to be much of a pattern so I've pretty much given that up. My period came exactly when I expected it which was good. But that's about all there is to report. Except that...people keep asking me if we're planning to have a baby... My husband and I agreed that we wouldn't tell anyone that we're trying, just so we don't have the added pressure of knowing that people are waiting and wondering just like us. We told my Mum and his Mum and that was it. Then my husband told his cousin... And then I told his sister... And then someone at work asked me and I couldn't lie to her... And yet my closest friends don't know. Well, they've probably guessed as they know that it's on the cards but I haven't told them that I've stopped taking the Pill. If they ask me I won't be lying. But the more people know the more I do feel a certain amount of pressure to "perform". I think I'm putting too much pressure on myself as it is. It's only been 3 months and I already feel like we're failing somehow. Ridiculous really. Will I become one of those people who doesn't get pregnant due to trying too hard and then gives up and then gets pregnant?? Less than a year ago I didn't even know if I wanted this at all!